motion sickness

i'm wondering what this is about. in 3 hours i actually have to wake up, get ready for school, sit in class with people i hate, get shit stuffed into my head that i couldn't care less about. i'm going to sit next to this boy who broke my heart the other day and he won't speak to me and i won't turn to him and nobody would care what happened between us because nobody knows. and it's not about a cheezywheezy love story, girl loves boy, boy shags girl but doesn't love back, whatever, i just think it's about how hard everbody is lying. to everybody else, to themselves, it is and it will always be this game playing mysterious nobody knows what's going on load of shit everybody's comitting. i don't know really. i just hope there is this one friend somewhere who's going straight towards me and kisses me and gives me a hug and says that he'd miss something if i wasn't there. i hope some day i will get the courage to be a person like that.